Fanfic Name / Nombre del Fanfic: One Song for Two Hearts

Chapter / Capitulo: chapter 9

Author / Autor: clo

Rating / Clasificacion: AP15 (For Teenagers = Para Adolescentes)

Romance

Fanfic: CHAPTER NINE – Foolish Games (Jewel)  
 
Lisa  
 
A figure is still seating on the floor with her head on the bed and her hair loose, the only movement that can be noticed is her sights, she doesn’t know where do the tears come from, every time she feels they are finished, they keep coming without being able to stop.  
 
She has been like that for hours; she hasn’t been able to put herself together to pick up the phone and call Claudia, her heart is aching so much that she is just not able to do it.  
 
What is killing her is not the fact she waited for him for hours, but to smell her perfume, the mockingbird’s, on him, on the scarf he put around her supposedly chivalrously, seeing what was written on it – “how can he be so cynic, how can I be such an asshole, I didn’t see it coming, I put my defense down and didn’t see it coming… last night, we shared this bed, last night he loved me” – shakes her head as she wants to take those thoughts out of her mind – “don’t’ be fool Lisa, last night he fucked you, that’s all. You were once again his condom, filled you with sperm and threw you to the garbage can” 
 
That simple idea disgusts her and gives her the strength to stand up, with all her anger (against him, the mockingbird and herself), takes the covers off the bed, shits and everything over it, leaves her room, walks her little flat so mad, gets out into the garden and throw everything into the garbage… she wants someone to feel her pain, to pass it into someone else. 
 
The images in her minds are driving her mad, Rick doing with Minmei what they just did together over her bed last night – “how can he go from one body to another, would he compared me with her, would he remember me, my kisses my movements” – she answers herself – “don’t be silly, he is right now with the love of his life, you are only his fuck buddy”. She is just standing outside under the sky full, there are no stars, and the moon is covered by some clouds, as it the environment was trying to get in her mood.  
 
Returns to her room and seeing the bed without nothing on it doesn’t make her feel better, but at least now she is up she reaches for her rock, now that she is inches away from insanity, she needs Claudia by her side to keep her away of doing something dumb as calling him and beg.  
 
– Gorgeous how was everything – her answer is just silence – Lisa – now the answer is Lisa sobbing – I’m on my way  
 
Lisa let herself go over the bed, crying again, everything seems so faraway, she is sure she will wake up in any time and Rick will be by her side snoring, but is not a dream; she perfectly knows that it did happen.  
 
She remembers everything as it was an scene from a movie, as if her soul left her body in the instant she caught him, what she said – “you are holding the wrong girl” – how she walked away angry when he didn’t say anything to defend himself – “don’t call never again” – never, such a terminate word, but it was not Lisa the one who said it, no it was Ice Queen Hayes, she took control in that moment, her hatred alter-ego invented to protect herself, saved her once more from the humiliation to cry as a baby in front of him and claim him as a jealous madwoman from the worst soap opera. She kept in control until she arrived home, where she indeed act as a character from a Jane Austen novel, crying over a lost love, she does not notice how long she was on the floor crying over her bed, for her it could be days. 
 
A few minutes passed before Claudia shows at her house, there is not need to knock the door she has her own key, the scene is not hopeful at all. On the floor of the living room are sparred food remains, a picnic basket is next to the wall, for a few seconds she just observes everything trying to believe her eyes, her usually calm friend threw the basket against the wall and all what it contained is now over the floor, then she notices that also the wall is covered of food. Just Lisa’s sobbing is able to bring her back to reality, she walks into the room, and there the scene is not great either. 
 
Lisa is on her bed in fetal position, she’s never seen her like that, in the years they have been best friends is the first time she sees Lisa Hayes in such state, not even when her father died. She silently and slowly approaches until she sits next to her and starts to caress Lisa’s hair and back.  
 
– Easy, came one girl it can be that bad 
 
– He is not for me – answers so low that almost cannot be hear  
 
– What are you talking about 
 
– Rick, love, a normal life outside the military  
 
– What happened, yesterday you were so happy, you were singing for Christ sake  
 
– He didn’t show up  
 
– ¿¿¿What??? 
 
– I stood there as fool waiting for him for hours, just seated at the cafe  
 
– Why he didn’t come to pick you up  
 
– Yesterday he… us – more sobs  
 
– Come here  
 
Lisa just arises enough to hold the only sane person in her life, Claudia just let her take out everything she is carrying inside, she knows there is something else, but she waits, as always Claudia Grant recognizes moments and knows how to act accordingly.  
 
– I feel so bad; I know I’m acting as a brat but… 
 
– You are behaving as a wounded woman, we all have been there  
 
She arises her face and sees the tenderness in Claudia’s eyes, she hugs her stronger and continue crying  
 
– He spent the night – sob – so because we didn’t want to lose time we agree to meet in the little café nearby  
 
– And just didn’t show  
 
– He did, 8 hours late  
 
– With a good explanation I hope  
 
– A personal emergency  
 
– What could be that urgent to keep him away from a phone to call you, did he tell you 
 
– I didn’t ask for further explanation… I gave him the benefit of the doubt, so we decided to call the picnic off and go to his place  
 
– And you forgave him, piece of shit 
 
– That’s not it  
 
– I supposed not  
 
– He hugged me and when he did passed a scarf around me to protect me from the cold 
 
– The least he could do… 
 
– That scarf had her smell all over – feels that Claudia is about to interrupt her so continues immediately – and had a something boarded… Minmei heart Rick 
 
– Good… - Claudia is speechless and that does not happen to her very often, a few times before as when Roy died – get up – says suddenly  
 
– ¿for what? 
 
– If you think for a second that I’m going to let you moored for someone as him you are wrong  
 
– Claudia… I don’t know  
 
– Of course you know, you come from military line and are the result of the best military training in the world… so stand up, you have been all night long crying over him, so not one more tear, you are going to take a bath and we are going out…  
 
– I don’t feel like to  
 
– I don’t care, I won’t’ let you to shut you from the world again… I know what you want, you want her back, but no Lisa the Ice Queen is out, that piece of monkey pilot is not the only man on earth and is far from being the best 
 
– Ok – feels like she is about to start all over again  
 
– Look, let’s do this, take a hot bubble bath and you have that long to cry for him, not one more minute – Lisa tries to interrupt – and no, it cannot last the whole night and day 
 
Lisa walks to the bathroom and turns to see her friend, who is already looking to clean sheets and covers in the closet, she knows she would be lost without her.  
 
– Thanks  
 
The only answer she receives is a smile and a wink, a wink of those eyes so deep and calm that only a person that has survived so many things, as loosing the love of her life and not falling apart, could have. Claudia Grant is a survivor and Lisa hopes to learn to be one.  
 
Closes the door behind her and starts to fill the tub up, she starts to take her clothes off and decides to turn the waterproof radio on, she wants to distract her mine and remembers Max wise words, music heals wounds – “I hope so my dear music lover friend, I really hope so” 
 
The CD one is the one Claudia gave him and which includes her favorite songs, so is Minmei proof, she pours bubbles and aromatic salts into the water and enters into the tub.  
 
“What on earth I did wrong in my past life; I wonder how wrong it could be to deserve to lose my first love in war and not being able to make the second one to love me back” 
 
You took your coat off and stood in the rain  
You were always crazy like that  
I watched from my window  
Always felt I was outside looking in on you  
 
“Oh Rick, actually not everything is your fault, it was me the one who told you how to treat me, the one who said my love was not as worthy as yours, that your crumbs were more than enough, yeah it was me the one who said… hey is ok just to fuck and fool around until she returns”. 
 
You were always the mysterious one  
With dark eyes and careless hair  
You were fashionably sensitive, but too cool to care 
Then you stood in my doorway, with nothing to say  
Besides some comment on the weather  
 
Her thoughts are interrupted by the chorus of the song she is listening, that’s how he felt, when he hugged her and she realizes why he didn’t arrive on time.  
 
Well in case you failed to notice  
In case you failed to see  
This is my heart bleeding before you  
This is me down on my knees  
These foolish games are tearing me apart  
Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart  
You're breaking my heart  
 
“You never noticed it was my heart bleeding, that was what I was offering you silly my heart and soul, I was the one on her knees, begging, playing the stupid games and getting my heart broken for your lack of words…”  
 
You were always brilliant in the morning  
Smoking your cigarettes, talking over coffee  
Your philosophies on art, Baroque moved you  
You loved Mozart and you'd speak of your loved ones  
As I clumsily strummed my guitar  
 
She feels the tears again falling over her checks, and it’s hard to believe that Ice Queen Hayes, the natural born leader, thousand of soldiers follow her instruction without question them, she is that state because of a man, it doesn’t matter the fact that he is a highly commended war hero, and extremely hot.  
 
Excuse me, think I've mistaken you for somebody else  
Somebody who gave a damn  
Somebody more like myself  
These foolish games are tearing me apart  
Your thoughtless words are breaking my heart  
You're breaking my heart  
 
You took your coat off and stood in the rain  
You were always crazy like that  
 
“I’m sorry Rick, I mistaken you with someone who gave a flying fuck for us, someone as in love as me” – sights – you are in love but certainly not with me, but why you let me fall for you” – the answer is inside her – “probably because he didn’t notice you were”.

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