Fanfic Name / Nombre del Fanfic: one song for two hearts
Chapter / Capitulo: chapter 17
Author / Autor: clo
Rating / Clasificacion: AP15 (For Teenagers = Para Adolescentes)
Romance
Fanfic: CHAPTER 17 – All by Myself (Jaime O’Neal)
Probably there will be some that will dislike this chapter, but I really don’t see Minmei as a villain… she is just a narcissist, spoiled and self center girl, who at the end sees her mistakes and face her lonely future with determination and courage.
– No, I’ll never understand it… no, don’t’ leave me Rick, NO
She is just there standing in the middle of the destruction, she is still trying to process what just happened. Her Rick decided to follow Lisa Hayes and left there just like that in the battle, he didn’t even try to take her to the nearest shelter – “we also want a normal life as anyone, even more” – Lisa told her, the one that is now in Rick’s heart.
“I’m not a bimbo as everyone think I’m; I knew about you in the exact moment it happened, not only that you were sleeping together but the fact that he fell for you Lisa, Rick just stop being the same with me”.
She begins to walk towards the shelter as she were enjoying a nice snowfall, as she wanted to take her time to enjoy the winter wind, but instead of being snow falling over her is the ashes of the fires all around town what has begun covering her, the biggest and brightest star looks so tiny with her dark hair cover with grayish ashes, wearing an exclusive designers outfit all dusty, just walking as if nothing was happening around her.
“I honestly thought he would be by the side forever, I took advantage of how much he loved me, not in a million years I would thought that he could leave me, during all this time a just playing around with his feelings and finally I lost them, he get tired of the game”.
She knows she is near the shelter, people has started to passed her by running not even noticing her, they just don’t care about nothing else but themselves, her fans pass by their beloved start without even noticing her.
– Minmei, God
She doesn’t hear it, she is still stuck in her own thoughts, in her mental recriminations to Lisa – “You sneaky bitch, you just got into his bed, you knew he was sad and alone and vulnerable because of what happen with his friend and just got into his bed, I could be there for him, but I…”
– Minmei snap of it – is until someone takes by the shoulders and gently shakes her that returns to the real world just to see her aunt and uncle standing in front of her, just seeing worry
– Aunt Lina
– I’m so glad you are ok, we have to hurry
Her aunt takes her by the arm and literally pulls her during the last streets, thick tears are falling – “Who could figures, not long ago you were the one crying for him Lisa, while saying goodbye for good, why he had to react like that… just because this stupid attack, otherwise he would be here taking care of me”.
Right before entering the shelter she turns to see the sky and sees Rick’s unmistakable Skull 1 flying, but she doesn’t know how to recognize it, a Valkyre is a Valkyre and she hasn’t a clue of which one is Rick’s, she doesn’t even remember the name of his squadron, he told it thousand of times, but she never had the interest of learning it.
– Please Lisa, take care of Rick during the battle.
Is right there where it hits her, just a few words that she never would thought to pronounce, but she did say them… Lynn Minmei beg her rival in love without even thinking about it, she finally realizes that the one taking care of Rick all this time was Lisa, that’s how she earn his heart. Things won’t be as she planned it.
Enters the shelter where her aunt and uncle are expecting her, she seats next to them and her aunt hug her and starts caressing her heir, trying to take most of the ashes out of it. She starts to sing very low the song she has always considered as the “mother of the all the losers’ songs, one that should be dedicated to Lisa Hayes not to her”, her voice is acting against her will, her mind is too busy analyzing each word coming out of her mouth.
When I was young
I never needed anyone
And makin' love was just for fun
Those days are gone
“I did make love for fun, I fucked with Kyle to feel somebody anybody, to feel someone need me… Oh Kyle you did love me, but at the end you also left me”
Livin' alone
I think of all the friends I've known
But when I dial the telephone
Nobody's home
“I’m losing everything for being so selfish, it’s time to grow up and stop blaming the all for my own mistakes, Rick and Kyle… they just had enough of how I treated them, Kyle decided to follow his own path and Rick found someone he has so many things in common”.
All by myself
Don't wanna be, all by myself anymore
All by myself
Don't wanna live, all by myself anymore
“My worst fear has always be being alone and now I’m the only one responsible of it, I’m the one to blame of my loneliness”
Hard to be sure
Sometimes I feel so insecure
And love so distant and obscure
Remains the cure
“I never felt this insecure before, all started to fall apart after Kyle told me he loved me and I laugh, how could I be so stupid, I never thought it could hurt him that much, he was drunk and I thought he wasn’t serious about it, not until that night when he left”.
The battle sound as it was the end of the world, and for the first time she wasn’t well protected in the SDF-1 with thousand of soldiers willing to give their lives for her, she wasn’t giving anything to the battle, the success doesn’t depend on her voice and catchy tunes, it depended on the soldiers.
“It has always depended on them, but I was so vain to believe that without me they wouldn’t have what it takes to defeat our enemies”.
A big explosion makes all the people in the shelter to panic and fear the worst, she only holds her aunt tighter, who cries for her son while begs to the ancestors to take care of him wherever he is.
“It seams like yesterday when he told me he would always loved me, right before taking our positions during Dolzar’s battle, and even when we kissed in this quarters, when we saw the earth hit by millions of beams – sights – he said her name, I pretended not to listen it but it was there when I realized that even when Rick was so convinced that I was the one, he was dying for her.”
She starts to cry for the lost time, for continue hooked to Rick and avoid him to continue with his life with someone else, some he loves.
“I didn’t need by my side, but I didn’t want you to love some else, that’s why I keep in touch to remain you what you like about me, it wasn’t until she really gets in you, that my spell was broken, it didn’t the last time we saw each other, the night he left… you slept on the couch not with me and last night, you don’t make love to me, you were pretending I was her. I guess we grew into different directions, I love you so sure that you would always be there, and your feelings changed so long ago”.
“Kyle, Rick… I’m truly sorry, I’m sorry I hurt you as I did. I’m sorry I laugh about your feelings and not helping you with your drinking problem, for giving up with you so soon, you would never do it with me Kyle, and you never did. And Rick, because of me you didn’t enjoy your relationship with her and you were about to lose her.”
“At least you will have time to be happy together, at least Kyle understand everything and is out there looking for his destiny, at least I learn my lesson… is time to grow, to stop being the little mocking bird and become a woman, is time to be what I know I can become.”
– The SDF-1 is really taking off
– Our prayers were listed – “Rick, Lisa… once more fighting for all of us, ancestors take good care of them, give them the chance to be happy together, and if it is not too much to ask take care of Kyle wherever he might be”.
And while observes how the ship that kept them save for so long lifting to the sky to fight one last battle, thinks that maybe by now she is alone, but she will fight with all her strengths to deserve a love as big as the one Rick once felt for her, but that now belongs to Lisa Hayes.
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