Fanfic Name / Nombre del Fanfic: one song for two hearts
Chapter / Capitulo: chapter 16
Author / Autor: clo
Rating / Clasificacion: AP15 (For Teenagers = Para Adolescentes)
Romance
Fanfic: Chapter 16 – More than Words (Extreme)
Perhaps the song does not have much to do with what Lisa and Rick are going through in this chapter, but is one of my all time favorites.
She knows that words are coming out of her mouth; she perfectly knows that she is trying to explain what is all her big mission about, her great escape to more honest – “one that even Houdini himself would envy” – her performance is Oscar material, her mother who was a big movies fan would be so proud of her – “Stop being Teresa and become Sabine just for once, betrays the urge I had to run away without saying nothing to him, to pretend that seeing her there is not killing all my determination” – thinks while Minmei is next to him holding his arm with that childish attitude of back off witch he is all mine – “I really hope you know how to make him happy bitch”.
Rick is just listening all Lisa is saying, the only word he manages to articulate is a silly “what” and feels so stupid by only saying that, while she just continues with her speech.
– When are you leaving? – at last Rick manages to create a sentence “she is leaving… a new command”
– Tomorrow
Lisa is getting her courage together while continue describing all the technical data of the reason why she is leaving the planet and returning to outer space, each item discuss with Global she is repeating them perfectly, she is asking him to be happy for her professional accomplishments as the friends they are – “I’m not lucky of us being just friends” – the Ice Queen is complying with her mission.
– I’m not fooling myself with the possibility of not returning ever
– I’m sure you’ll be successful – “you are not coming back, how can you do this to me” Rick’s mind is trying to follow all she is saying so unattached so cold, so Hayes and hates her for not showing a slight glance of a feeling – “how can you be so indifferent, we are not going to be together anymore… I won’t be able to kiss, to touch you; I won’t be able to make love to you, not even one more time”.
Lisa even finds the courage to say goodbye, as politely as she can, to the “mockingbird”, and wish her happiness with Rick, and she really means it – “the only thing I want is you to be happy, even if you are with someone else by your side, why we couldn’t be more than lovers Rick, something less English Patient… I don’t want to stay alone with scars in my soul and heart, remembering all our time together, by we couldn’t be as the fairy tales my mum used to tell me, why we couldn’t have our happily ever after”
The moment of true is there, she cannot delay it more, is know or never, this cannot be said on the phone and hope to Rick reach her to say goodbye with a code Morse message, this is time is for good and she just can’t hold that feeling that is oppressing her chest and doesn’t let her to breath right.
She is so scare but knows that battles are not win hiding from them, she has lead so many of them, she has faced scarier shit, scarier than that man with dark hair and eyes as blue as the sky with a masters in kissing that makes her feel an incredible feeling in the chest, and in every inch of her body, everything he says her name – “don’t kid yourself Lisa, they are by far the worst enemy you’ve faced in your whole life not even Dolzar’s entire fleet made you feel like this, Rick can kill you softly with a kiss or suddenly with his indifference, and her… she is torturing by touching his arm as she is doing” – but she is a Commandant and knows that most face her fears – “I’m the result of finest military training” .
Takes a deep breath, enough to avoid lose it, she doesn’t want to black out now, and that instant Lisa Hayes finally makes her two half become one, tough Ice Queen Hayes and sentimental Lisa. Finally she is able to show herself, as she really is… a strong human being with deep feelings, it was moment to say what she has always wanted to scream since the day they met, it was time to go to her own sightseeing and shout as once Claudia did it, now she is going to say with words what is has been trying to imply in every kiss, every hug, every caress, to shout it as she wanted to do it so many times while making love and he made her reach an orgasm – “why your head is so strong, words can be taken by the wind, but I could make you see”
– I only have one more thing to say – sights – I love – saying out loud is so strange but at the same times feels so right – I love you, I always have and I always will – she just stares in shock as he couldn’t believe, Minmei looks as she was expecting it but the confidence of knowing that she holds better cards – please… Minmei I’m so sorry but I probably won’t see him again and I have to tell him. Take good care of him for me, would you… bye
Her beautiful green eyes are sparkling by the tears threaten her to betray the strength shown, while making a military salute to say goodbye to her brother in arms, the supporting friend in her hard moments, her mischief’s buddy and unforgettable nights, it was time to finish the party, she would the whole universe for the hangover, she has to say goodbye to the person that shared with her some of her happiest moments, she was saying goodbye to the love of her life in the only manner she knows how… the military.
She is there in front of the happy couple with her Commandant uniform making a pathetic military salute with her hair moving at the sad rhythm set by the winter wind while feels that her legs won’t be able to support the weight of her body for much longer.
– Lisa I… - “she is in love with me, she is really in love with me” but he cannot manage to react, in his mind thousand of thoughts are rushing “because she is in love with you sir, that’s why”, Minmei holds his arm tighter “let’s marry” and Lisa just here standing saluting him while tears fall through her cheeks “I love you and I always will” and the only thing he is able to mumble while stays nail to the floor – I don’t know what to say, I want you not…..
He is just there in front of her, watching her beautiful green eyes shining intensively because of the tears, wants to release himself from Minmei’s grab and hug her, demand her to stay because he loves her too, actually he has love her for so long but he couldn’t find the courage to say it, as always she is braver than him…
Goodbye Commandant, God be with you – “please Rick stay, I know you still love me, she doesn’t mean anything, you just play along, kill sometime expecting me to return to you, please you have to stay”.
She holds Rick’s arm a little bit stronger, he is hers, the only thing left now that Kyle is gone, he cannot leave her too and much less for the woman in front of them, the one that even is completely defeated and crying, looks more dignified and strong that she would never could – “no… she is old hag, I’m Minmei, all men want me and you can have me, you cannot leave me for her” – squeezes more
– Thank you, I have to go my crew is waiting – finally the urge of running wins, and so she does it, runs away, she doesn’t want them to see her crying for one more second, tears are falling, and don’t want to continue being vulnerable
– He wait a minute, wait Lisa – “fuck why can’t I tell her, Lisa I love you… if you have to open your big hole called mouth is now”.
– You can’t leave, what about me – “I’m sorry Lisa, I’m really I’m, I would be like things to be different, in other situation I would love to be your friend, learn from you, but I get into his life before you, he loves me”.
– She needs me – “I need her, God Minmei move… I don’t want to hurt you more than necessary
– I need you too, how can you even consider to leave again – “you can’t leave me too, what I’m going to do without you, without Kyle, without my fans, you have to stay with me”.
LISA
Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
Its not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn’t have to say that you love me
Cos I’d already know
She runs through Macross’ Streets, her hair moves with the wind and her tears continue falling and falling, she hates herself for running like that – “you don’t seam like Captain at all” – but the only thing she can do is continuing running as fast as the stupid high heels leave her, wants to be at home and wait for Claudia to finish her shift and arrives to comfort her, yeah she will wait for her laying over her bed holding her “blanket”, the only solid thing left by him – “my fairy tale doesn’t end as Brother Grimm’s, I had my ending in a Little Mermaid style… him with someone else and with my heart becoming into bubbles”.
In a way she is not only running to avoid continuing making a fool of herself but to avoid the awkward moment of Rick telling her, really confirming her, after his initial and obvious shock, what she already knows – “he doesn’t love you, he never had, I know I have to stay there and give him a chance to say something, how sorry he might be of giving the wrong impression, that didn’t want to make me fall for him, that he thought we were in the same ship” – she is not that brave after all.
“The look in his face, God he didn’t see it coming and didn’t know what to say, but what he could say… honey great moments but now she is here next to me, and you well know what I feel for her, of course I know Rick, I’ve always knew it but I wanted to lie myself and hope for you to have a change of heart.”
Her feet are hurting as well as her face, the winter wind is so cold, but she will be home safe and sound in a few minutes, there she can put herself together.
“I’m going to have the immensity of the universe to enjoy our moments together, at least I have tons of them, thousand of beautiful memories, of your touch, how you caressed my body with your hands and tongue, sensations you awaken in me with your lips, how you made me lost the notion of everything around us while you hold me in your arms, while you were inside me… yeah all that is worthy, at least you cannot take that away from me”.
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn’t make things new
Just by saying I love you
Continues running, wants to be as far from Rick’s place as she can… want to leave the pain behind, to feel the winter wind in her face makes her feel alive – “nobody dies of a broken heart, I’m not exception”
Hears a unmistakable sound and sees the an explosions wave coming directly to her – “Khyron” – a part of her wants to stay there standing and receive it, but her survivor spirit is stronger, her military training makes her by instinct to dock and try to protect herself from the wrecks of the buildings falling.
“If I dye at least I told him” – thinks while everything around her is falling into pieces.
More than words
RICK
Now I’ve tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close dont ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldnt have to say that you love me
Cos I’d already know
– We are being attack, Minmei to the ground… Lisa, oh Lisa
Stands up as quick as he can and starts running to find Lisa, knows that Minmei is yelling something and that probably will follow him but he doesn’t care – “now you have to take care of you, I won’t be able to do it anymore, I have some else, I’m sorry Minmei but you were right our teenager dreams about a future together disappear in the moment that woman set her eyes on me… I had a room in her perfect world, in her fucking perfect world.”
He has to find Lisa, to check she is alright – “probably she was heading home to prepare for the trip, knowing her she might be checking her luggage for the tenth time” – so he takes that direction, thinking that maybe the attack surprises while she was going home, he will report to the base later – “first is first, I have to find her and see she is ok, take her in my arms and kiss her until our lips hurt and then say her how much I love too”.
The sight is not very nice, the city is devastated, the buildings and houses on the few blocks between Lisa’s and his place are in ruins, hears the ambulance sirens in the distant, but the only thing in his mind is to find her and take care of her eve if she doesn’t want to.
“God where are you, I can’t lose you now that I know how I feel for you, and that you feel the same, how could I be so blind. The whole base knew it before me, Vanessa even told me, but not I had to continue obsessed about Minmei”.
– Lisa where are you
She cannot find her; between so destruction he doesn’t see her
“Where are you? Is not fair God, you cannot take her away me, not now, no when we are finally in same boat, all this time I’ve been in oblivion, wasting my time, while she has been waiting for me to take the first step”
– Fairy tales, she is always telling fairy tales to little Dana, specially when I’m around, that’s what she was trying to tell me – says out loud when realizes of in how many ways Lisa tried to tell him.
“He rescued her from the highest tower, woke her up with a true love kiss and lives happily ever after” – he can hear Lisa sweet voice telling any type of tales to Dana, all kind of tales where a princess is rescued – “Mum used to tell all these stories before bed time, and I’d always thought that the princess was able to rescue him, but sometimes we have to pretend to make them feel important” – Miriya always laugh and said it was true and that maybe it was time to stop saving Max’s ass.
Rick rescued Lisa from Sara Base in Mars and even both were in love with someone else, she was in love of a ghost and he was of a dream, the couldn’t deny the attraction; after the rescue from Grand Canyon and the kiss they shared – “she said we would be an awful couple, asshole what else she could say if you were apologizing of the terrible mistake of cheating on Minmei”.
– Let me rescue you one more time – shouts – I promise it would be the definitive, Lisa God, I’ll be stronger, safer, braver… I promise to love you for all my life, but first you have to be ok, please you have to be ok.
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn’t make things new
Just by saying I love you
Finally hears her, he approaches running and sees her trying to stand up, her hair is a mess and her uniform is covered with dust, but is one of the most beautiful images he has seen in his entire life, after the one of her naked under him looking at him with adoration while making love – “why I didn’t notice it”.
More than words
BOTH
Rick helps her to stand, she really looks like shit, but even when the attack surprised her in the middle of the street and is quite confused because of the wave, she doesn’t stop being Commandant Hayes, only her eyes shows the little Lisa that run away from his house holding her heart in one hand after showing it and offer it to him, and dumb of him took a while to react, actually he need an explosion to realize how lost he would be without her – “at least one good thing results from that Bastard Khyron, he woke me up from my stupid dream” – she moves a little bit away from him, standing next to him.
– I’ll be fine
– Relax Lisa
He is dying to hug and kiss her, to take care of her and tell that is a smuck, to ask her to forgive him to take so long to react but she well know how dumb he can be , she is jus struggling with the urge to run combined with the huge desire to hug him and kiss him; but they are both soldiers, at least know they are safe and together, so shared they impressions of the attack, to then be Lisa the first of reacting about the importance of be in the base and assume their corresponding roles.
– I’ll have to return to the SDF1 – “and be away from you”
Turns so fast and she is still dizzy that almost falls to the ground, but is Rick the one that holds by the waist, as in those occasions that when leaving the base he hold her from behind to kiss her on the neck or whisper something dirty in her ear, and she just laugh and told me that it wasn’t the place – “she wasn’t ashamed of us, she didn’t want to ruin things for me and Minmei, she was willing to be in the shadows for me, even in that she took care of me.”
– Wait you cannot go anywhere, you are so week and I’ll take care of you because… I love you
Lisa is about to fall again, but this time because of the shock, she feels she is one of the fairy tales she told Dana – “Dana darling I have a new one, he saves her from the destruction of Khyron’s last attack and confesses his true feelings for her” – turns to see his eyes, she wants to see her own reflection in those beloved eyes where she can lost for all eternity
– What did you say, this is not a dream or a joke – “maybe I’m dead and I’m in heaven”
What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
– No… what do you think I’ve been busting my balls to show during the last months – says while continues holding her by the waist with one hand and with other caresses her check where a tear leaves a trail in her dusty face – “even like this you are the most beautiful woman I’ve lay eyes on”
– But Minmei, she is there… and you always – “I’m dreaming”.
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldn’t make things new
Just by saying I love you
– I’ve been confused, blind by my teenager dreams, I made so many mistakes that I just hope you can forgive… I do love you
– You love me
More than words
– I believe it when I say that is more than just words
They kiss, and just like that by joining their lips, and for a brief instant, all around them disappears, the war, the destruction, the battles, Minmei’s hysterical screams… they just break the kiss to see each other eyes and make a promise in silence, to promise to be fight one more time together to survive and to have the rest of their lives and the whole universe to show over and over with something more than words how much they mean for each other.
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