Fanfic Name / Nombre del Fanfic: One Song for Two Hearts

Chapter / Capitulo: chapter 12

Author / Autor: clo

Rating / Clasificacion: AP15 (For Teenagers = Para Adolescentes)

Romance

Fanfic: Chapter 12 – Con las Manos Vacías (Miguel Bosé & Rafa Sánchez) 
 
Rick is sure that definitely is not his day, he had a night from hell, all crocked and sore for sleeping on the couch. Second, Minmei romantic in the morning and he fighting as he could to avoid falling for it (he doesn’t want to be blackmail by her), followed by her advices, no her neurotic demands, asking him to take care. Then the battle with Khyron was devastating, the city was in ruins, and he didn’t join it on time because for an odd reason someone forget to notify him, so he on top of his sore body he has a guilty feeling for not being able to do something else during battle for the tiny detail of joining late.  
 
But that was everything, far from it, the cherry on top of the cake was the reason why he is now running through the base as a madman… in his head Vanessa’s words are repeating over and over, when he went to the bridge looking for Lisa to ask her about the status of the city, a silly excuse to see if she was OK, in fact only to see her and talk with her. 
 
– Lieutenant Hunter I’m so glad you are feeling better  
 
– Better…  
 
– Yes Commander Hayes let us know you were in bed really sick  
 
– I’m so much better, thanks for asking Vanessa, by the way where is Lisa 
 
– She had to go to review some reports of the damages caused by the last battle  
 
– So she is still in the base 
 
– I suppose so, but maybe she rather to go home to prepare Christmas dinner  
 
– Thanks Vanessa, Merry Christmas 
 
– Merry Christmas Lieutenant  
 
“Everyone really believes we are a couple, not now Vanessa” – Rick is furious the only thing he wants is find her and ask, no demand her an explanation for her attitude, but for an odd reason Vanessa’s words starts to mix with ones she told in another occasion – “because she is in love with you sir, that’s why” 
 
“Why Lisa lied… it is some kind of stupid revenge for what happened, I don’t think so, she is not capable of something that low, so unprofessional, but they didn’t call me to duty because she lied, I cannot believe she put in that jeopardy my squadron and all the city civilians”.  
 
The base seams so big, he feels like if he has been walking for hours, but it only has been a few minutes, but he doesn’t want to lose his anger, he wants to settle things, maybe he stood her up, but she has not right to take that kind of attributions, that’s not her place, if she did it, in the best scenario, to look up for him to protect him, well he is big enough to take care of himself.  
 
“If having Minmei back in my life and putting more pressure on me entering a battle wasn’t enough, God… I hate when she begs me to be careful, she hasn’t not the slightest idea of good I’m become, Lisa has also ask me the same, but it sounds so different, so less hysterical, so… really concern” – he shakes his head, don’t want to have nice memories about Lisa take him out of concentration, needs to be mad, needs to be cool, to follow protocol, of course until he screams so loud to her to cover her screams – “this is Showbusiness no Showfriends, she is always saying that, and now she pulls this taking me out of the play like that, definitely the women in my life are both nut jobs”  
 
Finally an official from reconstructive tactics informs him that she has just left and said that she was going to take the reports home to work there, Rick doesn’t even say thanks, runs towards the exit and the security guard let him know that Commander Hayes passed through there a few minutes ago by foot. 
 
Again Rick runs as fast as he can to reach her, over the street along SDF1 resting place in the lake, a lonely figure is walking with her hands in the beige coat pockets, her red hair makes a beautiful contrast with the color of her coat, the winter wind is moving it, even when the only thing he can see is her back she looks stunning, the sexy figure he has caressed with his hips and hands so many times, but something makes her look so fragile and he really wants to protect her once again with lips and hands, with his own body, he wants to maker love to her – “no Hunter, it’s not the moment for lustful thoughts, you are mad at her, she has to understand that work is work, more important when lives are on the way, I cannot believe I’m the one teaching that lesson to Lisa” 
 
- Lisa - yells and she pretends not to hear him, she doesn’t want him to see her like that, with red eyes because of her tears – Shit Lisa wait – continue walking “not now Hunter, please not now” is the only thing she can thing while wipes her tears as discretely as she can, anticipating what is going to happen next, she knows him to well – are you deft  
 
She cannot pretend anymore, when saying this Ricks hand is over her shoulder to stop her, she turns to face him and initiate a performance that even Minmein or great Ingrid Bergman would envy her, an academy award performance.  
 
- Lieutenant – answers him in the most military tone she is able to use  
 
- What’s your problem? 
 
- I think that is not the tone you should be using to address your superior officer  
 
- Cut the crap, you know very well why I’m using this tone to address you 
 
- I think I don’t Lieutenant, maybe you wouldn’t care to explain it to me  
 
- Please don’t pretend, you know…  
 
- Again Lieutenant, first of all change your tone and second I don’t know what the hell are you talking about. 
 
- I spoke with Vanessa and she told me that you let them know I was in bed… sick, that’s a lie, you should inform me from the first take off order  
 
- And you should be more discrete when you have visits, last night I went to see you and your door was open, I know everything about Minmei 
 
He hasn’t have a reply for that, and above all he doesn’t know how to read Lisa’s expression, her eyes look as she was crying her eyes off but reflect a fury that he has just seen a few times before, and her voice is some kind out of key, but her tone is not the one of a jealous woman, it sounds like if she is… relieve  
 
Christmas lights start to tinkle all over the city, even the SDF1 shows a serial of bright and happy color lights, at the same time Christmas Carroll’s sing by Macross inhabitants can be listen, they are celebrating despite what happened, celebrating once again the triumph of human spirit, both are in silence steering to each others eyes, looking for a light of faith, hoping the other makes the first move, praying for a miracle… finally is Rick the one that breaks the silence  
 
- I, look Lisa… 
 
- You don’t have to explain anything Rick, as you once told me: your personal life is that personal, and I don’t have any right to bug on it 
 
- She is only a friend  
 
- We both know that’s not true, besides you and I, we were only having a good time, that’s all – saying those words is breaking Lisa’s heart in a thousand pieces, but she doesn’t want to show it, she loves him so much that doesn’t want to hurt him, to make him feel guilty, and keeping him of enjoying what he has longed for so many years, being with Minmei… if he is happy that would make her happy.  
 
- You’re right we were only fooling around, that’s it – he doesn’t understand why he is lying, he fights the part of him that wishes to hug her and tell that it’s just a lie… but the other part is not pretty sure, Minmei is at his home waiting for him, and he has wanted that for so long, that cannot think straight, “be careful of what you want” says a voice inside him, “no better decide what you really want” answers himself but Lisa breaks his interior dialogue  
 
- Well Lieutenant I guess she is waiting for you, so I won’t keep you anymore… Taxi – yells while waves to a cab and thanks God because the driver so her – bye Rick Merry Christmas  
 
- Merry Christmas 
 
She doesn’t turn because she is fighting the urge to do so, she perfectly knows, that if she dares to see one more time those deep blue eyes, she would get out the taxi and beg him to love her, but she manages to keep her eyes fixed on front of her, steady as the military she is… the song on the radio is not at all about the holidays and it makes her feel better, she is not in a festive mood right now.  
 
It’s an old song in Spanish, she remembers it because her roommate at the academy was from Mexico and was totally in love with both the singers… Amori translated it to her, actually she translated her lot of songs, that’s when she decided to learn to speak Spanish…. “Oh Lisa you speak so many languages, you know how to say I love you in so many languages but it seems you are incapable of just saying it” 
 
- Excuse me can you put the song from the beginning – asks to the driver and she sounds so helpless 
 
- Of course  
 
Hoy a vuelto a darme por pensar  
que el diablo vino a hablar  
hoy mi alma no es tan cara.  
en las calles de esta ciudad  
no te pares a buscar  
los secretos de las despedidas 
 
“Yeah, devil came once more to talk with me, and I almost sold him my soul in return of Rick’s love, but there is not secret in this goodbye” 
 
No pensarías que iba a marcharme  
con las manos vacías por ti?  
No pensarías que iba a marcharme  
con las manos vacías por ti?  
 
“No… I’m not leaving with my hands empty pal, they are full of memories and good moments, also with a bittersweet taste of defeat, they are full of bitterness for you Rick...” 
 
No me acostumbro a perder  
pero juego por placer  
y es el juego el que me da la vida. 
 
“For you I lost my heart once again, I gambled it and I lost, congratulations you melt the ice around the Ice Queen Hayes and manage to break her heart, you did what many tried and didn’t died in the attend as Karl” – she cannot handle anymore and starts to cry, her tears and sobbing drowns all sounds around her, the driver passes a disposable handkerchief while he is waiting at a red light 
 
- Thanks – says a weepy Lisa, trying very hard to smile  
 
- He will come around, he will see what he leaving miss and will come running for you – Lisa just smiles very sad – in this time we can expect almost everything  
 
- We can hope for a Christmas miracle  
 
- That’s it… don’t lose the hope, it’s the most important thing there is, specially in moments like this  
 
- You are right – “or Claudia is opening branches or this man is an angel sent by heaven to stop me to jump into the lake” – Merry Christmas  
 
- “Feliz Navidad” miss, you’ll see it will be a wonderful and happy new year. 
 
- Esperemos que asi sea – says in Spanish while this time gives him a wide sincere smile, even when her eyes continue full of tears  
 
The car moves again when the light turns green – “there’s good people in the world, even you and Minmei, Rick I wish you both a Merry Christmas and a wonderful life together, Merry Christmas Karl, Dad, Roy, Ben… Mummy I would murder someone to have you here with me, but I supposed that’s why you send me Claudia, to fill your place, she and this kind man”.  
 
Rick stays a few minutes, as he could move until Lisa’s cab is out of his sight – “only having a good time, maybe she is right” – starts to walk towards home, he is not trill of seeing Minmei, he knows that she is going to make an scene – “if she is still there of course, maybe she decided to make an special appearance because of the holidays, or just Kyle call her and she is back with him” – he cannot figure it out it that would make him happy or miserable, maybe it has happened so many times that it lost its meaning, doesn’t affect him anymore. 
 
In all the city streets and despite the rough battle that happened a few hours ago, the Christmas spirit can be felt, but not for him – “Now I really lost her… I lose Lisa, my best friend, Lieutenant and that tone, not the sexy playful tone she uses when we are together just about to make love, no Lieutenant with her fucking superiority tone, she treated me as her subordinate, not as a friend and much less as her… shit I don’t even know what the hell we are, we were” 
 
Puede que me canse del alcohol  
y que esta noche salga el sol  
pero quien lo necesita. 
Nunca sopla el viento a favor  
cuando se trata del amor  
y pretendes ir de prisa 
 
“I cannot even call Max and get hammer, he is at home with his family, why can I not get a break in love… I have Lisa and wanted Minmei, and now I have Minmei and I’m losing Lisa” 
 
No pensarías que iba a marcharme  
con las manos vacías por ti?  
No pensarías que iba a marcharme  
con las manos vacías por ti?  
 
“Probably it is the best, Lisa and I wouldn’t work as a couple, maybe Minmei is the right woman for me, yeah probably is not that bad, at least she always returns to me”.  
 
He arrives to the corner where he can take the street to his house or the one for Lisa’s, he hesitates one last time – “maybe if I try to explain her, I won’t lose her friendship… - sights and the steam of his breath makes him reflex – “no… I better let things cool down, she always forgive me once she is calm, I’ll talk to her later” – thinks while takes his own street, walks really slowly as if doesn’t really want to arrive home, probably if he would take Lisa’s street he would be running.  
 
When he arrives Minmei is praying, she turns when listens the door and runs to hug him – “well at least she is not in her drama queen role” – she fixed dinner for both and decides to celebrate Christmas – “yeah she always returns”.  
 
No me acostumbro a perder  
pero juego por placer  
y es el juego el que me da la vida.  
No me acostumbro a perder  
pero juego por placer  
y es el juego el que, si... me da la vida. 
 
Dinner is quite, suddenly he kisses her tenderly and she responds with passion, he doesn’t know why he did it, he only knows that doesn’t want to be alone, at least not tonight, so decides to take her to bed, he is the one leading the action. When they arrive to his room, Rick starts to take his clothes off, she does the same kind out of balance, she doesn’t know what change, last time they slept together, he took her clothes off with so much passion, worshiping her as she was his goddess, now his just lying over the bed naked waiting for her.  
 
con las manos vacías por ti?  
No me acostumbro a perder  
pero juego por placer  
y es el juego el que me da la vida.  
 
They make love, at least she does, and he is just fucking her. Rick avoids kissing her on the lips, he is away from that area, licks her neck and her breast, caresses her but the things are not the same, they are not as the last time, before he started his “relationship” with Lisa.  
 
He cannot avoid it every Minmei’s movement is compared with Lisa’s, every kiss, every caress, every moan, they seem so fake – “is like fucking with Jenna Jamison or any other porn star” – is what he is thinking, but doesn’t recognize it – “is just good sex, it always has been good satisfactory sex, is just that Lisa has me in tangle, yeah what happened earlier is what is taking me out of focus, but God… is not her, is not my Lisa”.  
 
No me acostumbro a perder  
No me acostumbro a perder  
y es el juego el que, si... me da la vida. 
 
She knows, is not the same, he doesn’t worship her anymore, that makes her to try harder, to move in a way that she would do in different circumstances, she wants to prove him that she has understand that he is the person she can depend on, he will be there for her always, not as Kyle that run away in the first change, or as her manager and her entourage, as her fans that only see her as a gold mine or the little singing doll without feelings, she has feelings. At least wants to have them, she wants a normal life, for now, a normal life besides the only person who cares for her as she is. Rick, who despite the thousand times she has tossed him away, is there waiting for her, at her commands… no, she cannot lose him too – “you will be always there for me, you are mine”– thinks and moans harder, she wants to block his senses, his mind, she wants him to enjoy.  
 
No me acostumbro a perder  
No me acostumbro a perder  
y es el juego el que, si... me da la vida. 
y es el juego el que, si... me da la vida. 
 
He comes out of her, without caring if she climax or not, he feels empty, session was rather good, but it was indeed a good fuck, being sincere what they made wasn’t love, they have sex, wild and dirty sex… he has been making love for months, and she, even she is used to have casual sex with Kyle, cannot believe, she is losing HERRick, she is willing to all, to sacrifice anything, for now of course, to have him back. She is going to make him to put her back in her pedestal; she has to be his goddess again.  
 
Con las manos vacías por ti...  
 
“You are the one that makes me have my hands empty Minmei” – thinks Rick lying next to her, trying very hard to be as far as he can from her, wishing it was Lisa the one sharing his bed, the one he spent Christmas eve with – “not having her here with me, makes me feel my heart and soul empty” – but he is too stubborn to recognize it 
 
In that exact moment, in Claudia Grant’s house, Lisa Hayes is sleeping next to her best friend, while holding with both hands as it was a child blanket a pair of gray boxers, at least in that way her hands wouldn’t be empty.  

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