Fanfic Name / Nombre del Fanfic: One Song for Two Hearts
Chapter / Capitulo: chapter 11
Author / Autor: clo
Rating / Clasificacion: AP15 (For Teenagers = Para Adolescentes)
Romance
Fanfic: CHAPTER ELEVEN - Out of Reach (Gabrielle – OST Bridget Jones’ Diary)
She is holding a light pole as if her balance depends on it, she knows she must be looking as a crazy person, there holding a frozen light pole, at least that’s what the man than nicely approach her to ask if she was ok and she nicely told him to sought off.
She feels in that frozen hell described by Dante in his Divine Comedy, Rick and stupid Minmei played Virgil and took her down into that hell.
She is just there, trying to find courage where she is well aware there is not one single drop left – “you have to move Lisa” – yells to her that military woman inside her – “I can Hayes, I don’t have the strength to do it” – again part of her orders her – “you have to do it, that would your father and Karl would said, that would Claudia think” – that puts her in motion.
Walks through Macross streets without a destination, around her people is making last minute Christmas shops – “another shitty Christmas, and I thought this year would be different” – finally something caught her attention, the neon light sing of a bar, the tiny blues bar where she usually goes with Claudia – “I need a drink”.
Gets inside and the band is not there – “what a petty, I’m in an old picture heroine mood, I needed some blues incidental music” – she seats in the far end of the bar
– Good night, what can I offer you
– Vodka tonic with Absolute Mandarine please
Bar tender returns and with a wide smile hands her drink…
– Sorry, does the band play today
– They’re on vacations due the holidays, I’m sorry. But if you want some music, there is an old jukebox
– Years since the last time I saw one – replies for herself, remembering the one in the old coffee shop near her London house where she used to have pancakes for breakfast with her parents – Thanks
At the beginning she is not up to… decides to remain seated, but after her fourth vodka and tire of listening one Minmei song after another, decides to see what she can listen to take the image of the little star fucking with Rick while she sings everything dammed song to his ear.
She walks to the jukebox and read the catalogue of songs, there’s an old friend, puts her coins in and selects C3, returns to her seat to continue drinking… it’s the first time in her life she drinks that bad, and she feels rather drunk but she wants to stop imaging him kissing her, caressing her, inside of her making love, without remembering poor Lisa for a split second.
She starts to sing along very low…
Knew the signs
Wasn't right
I was stupid for a while
Swept away by you
And now I feel like a fool
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
“Yeah I recognize all and each one of the signs, but I wanted to believe I was wrong, I wanted to believe that you loved me as I love you”
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be
“We were never meant to be, I knew she was part of your heart, but I still put my hopes high”
Catch myself
From despair
I could drown
If I stay here
Keeping busy everyday
I know I will be OK
But I was
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
“Was I ever loved by you, you big stupid handsome lovely pilot?”
Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be
So much hurt,
So much pain
Takes a while
To regain
What is lost inside
And I hope that in time,
You'll be out of my mind
And I'll be over you
But now I'm
So confused,
My heart's bruised
Was I ever loved by you?
Out of reach,
So far
I never had your heart
Out of reach,
Couldn't see
We were never
Meant to be
Out of reach,
So far
You never gave your heart
In my reach, I can see
There's a life out there
For me
“Out of reach, so far, you never gave your heart, in my reach I can see there’s a life out there for me”
The last part of is song by someone with better voice, a combination of Bessie Jackson with a sweet tone, when Lisa turns to see who is following her song, sees in front of her Claudia, with a look full of tenderness and sadness.
– You have drink enough it’s time to go
– Alright – answers Lisa with her head down, she is not in the mood of arguing with Claudia and knows that is she takes one more drink she would definitely lose control
Claudia pays the bill and when they step out the bar, Lisa feels relieve of feeling the cold wind in her face
– Would you like to take a cab or want to walk it off
– I want to arrive home as soon as possible
– No your home, I don’t want you around so many memories in this moment, taxi
The journey from the bar to Claudia’s place is a big blank for Lisa, basically she has her head almost out the window to have the fresh air hitting her face and avoid the nauseas she feels to conquer her will… she is so sick, not only by the quantity of vodka she drank, but by the molotov cocktail of her intimacy moments with Rick mixing with those produced by her imagination of him and Minmei, with some liters of Absolute.
When arriving Claudia’s, she hasn’t even opened the door well when Lisa runs towards the bathroom. Claudia calmly enters, closes the door and hangs her coat while asks
– Is everything ok – the only answers is the sound of Lisa puking – I suppose it is
She approaches the bathroom and there seated on the floor is Lisa with her head inside the toilet, the always put together Commander Lisa Hayes puking as hard as she was trying to take her heart along with the whole content of her stomach, Claudia limits to do the only thing a best friend can do in a moment like this, put her hair up.
- I don’t think that your feelings for him will come out like this, but if it’s make you feel better go ahead
- What do you think I did wrong Claudia – asks Lisa with a deep voice, kind of harsh due to the effort to puke while put her back against the wall
- Lisa relationships just don’t work
- I thought it meant something, that he
- Lisa sometimes you have to make things happen, you have to open your
- I know open my mouth and say things, but he didn’t give a chance either
- I know, believe me I’m so disappointed, I rarely make a mistake and I swear that I thought that Rick had or has feelings for you
- I thought so too… but she was there Claudia begging to stay with him
- That means nothing
- Means everything, I was his in the mean time, she is his all
- Don’t be so fatalist
- He didn’t say no…
- I bet you 100 bucks you didn’t stay to hear him
- No I didn’t, there was a need
- You better run away as fast as your legs and the some allow you, didn’t you?
- Yeah I did
- And you end up contaminating my bar with your sadness
- I’m glad you can joke in a moment like this
- When if not now, let’s go to sleep, tomorrow it will be another day… you can stay here
- I would love it, I don’t want to go home at least no today
- Stay as long as you need, mi casa es tu casa
- I know, I would be lost without you
- Yeah, probably you would be alcoholic or end up murdering those two, if you ask me I rather the second option
- Better in jail than losing the style
- Exactly
In other house of the military quarter, a confused Rick Hunter sleeps on the couch, refusing to share his bed, and above all refusing to make love to Minmei, he is so confuse… his fantasy is there but something is missing, actually he is missing someone… someone who emptied her stomach and part of her soul, and that precisely in those moments is seated over the cold tiles of Claudia’s bathroom, thinking that surely he is in bed with Minmei making what he is refusing to do.
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