fanfic_name = Lisa

chapter = Chapter 3

author = Clo

Rating = AP15

Type = Angst

fanfic = Chapter Three – The Birth of the Ice Queen

I remembered as it was yesterday the day I knew Karl’s death, I was my father who informed me. I was in physical training, getting ready to start the trail, when a corporal approach our squad leader

- Hayes – he yelled

- Yes sir – I approach saluting him

- Someone is looking for you at the Captain office

- Thank you sir

I walked toward the office and something inside me was telling me that there was something wrong; I knew that being pull out of the training was not for good news. When I walked in the office I saw my father standing in front of the windows, his back and his admiral uniform couldn’t be mistaken…

- Sir, Private Hayes reporting – I said and he turned I saluted him, he might be my father, but he was still an Admiral, his face showed a sadness I’ve only seen once before many years ago, when my mother died.

- Hello Lisa, please take a seat

- It’s something wrong sir? – I asked while a seated in front of him, across the desk

- Lisa something happened and didn’t want you to hear it from someone else, I wanted to be with you, to be your father

- You are scaring me, what happen?

- There was an attack to the Base in Mar, anti-UEG forces and…

- Karl?!!!!! – I interrupted

- There were not survivors honey

I knew my father continued giving details about the attack, but I was not listening… I was trying my best to wake up, it had to be a nightmare, Karl Riber couldn’t be dead. She was going to send for me, he was going to take me away from the war; we were going to marry and had a little girl named Maya, as the island from my father’s tales.

- Lisa… Lisa, are you alright?

- Yes sir, there has been confirmation that there are not survivors?

- Honey, the based was attacked and we lost any contact with them

- It is possible that there are survivors?

- The attack was three weeks ago, if someone survived that inferno, believe we would hear about it.

- You have known it for three weeks and you didn’t tell me

- I wanted to be sure of what I have to inform you, I didn’t want to put you in this position until I’ve a positive confirmation.

- Thank you sir for thinking about my feelings, but I would rather your sincerity from day one, now if you excuse sir, I have to return to my training my squad leader is waiting for me.

- I you desire to take license to…

- Sir I’m just another soldier and these moments we are all needed, I do not wish to have special considerations only because of my “father” – I said while I stood up.

- I understand – now he was the one who salute – you are dismiss

- Thank you sir

I returned to my training as it nothing happen, there was when the Ice Queen Hayes was born, just like that. Being in front of my father part of me wanted to cry and hugged him, as when my mother died, but the other part, one I didn’t know it existed until that moment, yield inside me… command me to remain there, it reminded me that I was a soldier and as one I knew the risks of the job, as Karl also knew them.

I won’t deny it I cried and a lot, but when nobody could see me, not even Vanessa, I did it when she was not in the room and in the shower when there was no one in the dressing rooms. Only when I was alone I let myself feel the pain, I could feel how my heart was breaking and the only thing that avoided that the little pieces scattered in the wind was the ice I formed around it.

I dedicated body, heart and soul to my military training, to be the best was my main concern. During that year there was not nothing else that my training. I stop going to parties, even Vanessa nagged me about it, until finally one day she just stopped. I knew, well I still do, all procedures backwards, there was nobody better than me.

People talked about me, I was Cruella DeVille bitchier sister, but it didn’t mind, far from hurting me those comments made me stronger, well made her stronger, the ice queen, behind that disguise Lisa was hiding. I also knew that there were some privates that had the hots for me, but they were really scared to approach me and literally being hit as a cricket ball. One time Vanessa decided to talk with me about that attitude, she was the only person I spoke about Karl, until I met the most important woman of my life, after mum of course… Claudia Grant.

It was a Saturday and our resting day, I was in the room seated in front of my desk, reading some procedures, to be honest way ahead my training level, when she walked in smiling…

- Don’t you have plans for today

- I think that studying is an excellent plan Vanessa

- Come’n Lisa – she said while opened the curtain and let the sun enter into the room – it’s a beautiful day, why don’t we go out?

- Out where

- We take the bus and go to London, I’m dying to go to Harrold’s, it has been a while since the last time I felt as one of the girls

- We both know that our paychecks are not good enough for Harrold’s

- Yeah I know, but there is no charge for seeing, and take a peak of what is going to our lives when we both are high rank officers and can afford to by there, in Tiffany’s or wherever we want.

- If the situation continues the same path it does now, there won’t be a single store in the earth

- You cannot be like this anymore – she suddenly said

- What bloody hell are you talking about Vanessa, I’m fine

- No, you’re not, you have to take all that pain out or soon or later is going to finish you

- Not everyone handle pain as you

- You’ve that zombie attitude for over a year, it is not normal

- As I said each one handle…

- Balls… you loved him, tell that ball of shit to someone that does not know you, and that didn’t see you with him, your happiness caused envy

- Me crying my eyes out for him won’t bring back

- No, either you being dead inside, this are not you… ok you are not the one of the shiny happy people, but this block of ice is not you, not for real.

- How do you know it… sharing a room for a few years, and going to a party together once in a while, does not make you an expert about Lisa Hayes

- Maybe not, but on the contrary of you I haven’t my heart and soul on vacations, I consider you my friend and it is painful to see like this

- What do you want me to say

- What you feel, just for once in you stupid life, say it out loud, so it won’t continue poisoning you.

Suddenly both remain silence, and without knowing why for a brief instant Lisa won the eternal battle against private Hayes, it was one of the few occasions that happened, and I started to cry, with my head down, finally I said something that even for me was shocking.

- I hate him – Vanessa was standing by side hugged me – you don’t a clue of how much I hate him, if he wouldn’t be a coward and run away, at least we would have more time.

- He thought he was doing the right thing, that he would be safe there, he knew that as long as you remain in the academy you would be protected. He thought that in the space all this madness would remain here, he was wrong… after all Lisa he was only human, and he was going to send for you.

- How can you be so certain

- Because he loved you Lisa Hayes, that’s why… I know you’ll never be who you used to… but come’n open up a little. The best is yet to come.

- I’m not that sure, I’m only 18 years old and the love of my life is already dead.

- How can you be so sure that Karl was the love of your live, Lisa you said it yourself you’re only 18 years, you haven’t lived yet. Maybe Karl’s role in your life was preparing you for something bigger and better.

- Sometimes I think about he used to say about war, how violence generate more violence, we have more than 4 years in an endless war.

- Well, my mother uses to say that you cannot prepare an omelet without breaking an egg, peace won’t be accomplished without casualties, and you being part of a military family must know it better than anyone else. Not all can be Gandhi.

- I think not, thanks for everything…

- Any time. Now let’s go to London, I want to go to a pub, we can stay in your palace and return to the base tomorrow.

- With one condition…

- What?

- I’ll let you drag me to your Barbie world, if you stop playing Freud with me

- Word of honor….

Only with Vanessa I dared to show a little bit of Lisa, in front of the rest of the base, well the rest of the world, I was Private Hayes. Vanessa kept her promise and never talked about it again, just one more time a few days before finishing our basic training. Going to London was our ritual to release all that stress caused by the training, all our free weekends we went there and stay in my “palace” as Vanessa used to call my house, which was located in one of the fanciest parties of the city.

One Saturday a month before ending the training, we went to a art gallery near Piccadilly, after expending most of the morning seeing odd paintings, we went to have a cup of coffee and grab something to eat, when for an odd coincidence we end up in front of an exclusive designer store, Armani. Vanessa was a huge fashionist, something rather strange for a bookworm and just stop in front of the store window, there was a beautiful evening gown displaying, it was a green silk dress.

- What a gorgeous dress, don’t you think so Lisa

- Yes it is – I said very low

- Are you ok – she asked while she turned to see me, I guess my face was the answer she was looking for – for the Goddess what’s wrong Lisa

- I once wore something very similar, even the color is very alike

- With Karl isn’t it? I’m sorry I didn’t know it

- Don’t worry how you could know it. In fact I bought the dress in this store; I bought it to attend to an old friend of my father, Henry Gloval.

- You were invited to Captain Gloval wedding, you really move in inner circles.

- I think so I went with Karl a few weeks before he was assigned to Sara Base.

- I’m guessing you looked great – she said without thinking – that color bring out your eyes, and supposed he wore his gala uniform

- You know how much he hated the military, he wore a smoking.

- How is Henry Gloval – my friend so my sadness, she could read me so well, so decided to change the subject and I thank her for that, without noticed we were walking away from the store – I’ve heard a lot about him in the academy… a Russian supporting the United Nations.

- He is extremely solemnly, you can notice how intelligent he is in his eyes, in the way he conducts himself.

- Sorry ladies can I bring you something to drink – asked the waiter while handled us the menus

- A petite soda for me and you Lisa

- Ice tea please

- I’ll bring you your drinks in a moment and I’ll take the order

- Thanks – we answered at the same time

- How is she, she must be a great woman to catch a bachelor as Gloval.

- She is very attractive, in fact she is from Japan her name is Miho

- I hope we can follow orders from some as Captain Gloval

- I’ll love that too, I don’t want to be locked up in some communications room far from the line of fire, I want to be where I can really make a difference.

- Amen for that… let’s asked Yemanja for that

- You and your goddess

We finished our training on December 2005, I turned 19 years and it was a sad goodbye, “I rather farewell” Vanessa said, from my squadron mates and superiors, I really didn’t know them, my only friend was Vaness.

Each one of us followed a different path; the war was in recess once more, because both parties were trying to master the new technology.

Vanessa’s scientist’s abilities weren’t unnoticed and she has draft by the scientist division and started to do research of that technology we called Robotechnia. I decided to join the Officers’ Center, not for choice, because I wanted to be a Pilot, but the Admiral decided that the best move for my military career was to become an Officer.

During our training years, Vanessa and I continue in touch until she was transfer to the CVN-99 Asuka II a top secret project under the commands of the first scientific officer Aries Turner, the last she wrote me was from the goddess knows where in the Pacific, her letter was rather strange, she told me she couldn’t give details about her location, but it seams that my “Neverland” as she used to call my island existed. I was assigned to the Macross project, and I couldn’t stop thinking how near we would be.

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