fanfic_name = Lisa

chapter = chapter 10

author = Clo

Rating = AP15

Type = Angst

fanfic = Chapter 10 – Jiminy Cricket

- I think the game you are playing with Kudo can be dangerous – Claudia once said during our girls afternoons in the little flat she shared with Roy

- Don’t be dramatic Claudia, I’m a big girl and I can take care of myself – I answered after taking a sip of my tea

- I know that… but when the heart starts mediating feelings we women become teenagers, all our senses fly away through the window, take me for example… I’m just a high school girl near him.

- Between Shin and I there is no room for the heart – I said casually and I could see the disapproval expression in Claudia’s face – well, not in the conventional way

- What are you talking about, during the last week both of you had been stick to each other, and he knows his new orders

- So do I… even I don’t understand why my father is the need of pilots for the Grand Canyon Project.

- That’s your father’s business… but returning to what’s important, how can you be together, not involving the heart

- Because we are not with each other, not completely

- Now I’m lost… what the hell do you mean with that?

- I can be sound odd, and perhaps a little too cerebral – I took a deep breath trying to find out the words to explain our arrangement – in his heart is Sara and in mine…

- The mystery guy

- The mystery guy

- Help to understand you… what happened with the mystery guy, the only thing I know is that his name is Karl Riber

- His name was…

- Sorry?????

- The mystery guy died in a bloody Mar’s base, just after he promised to send for me, the same that promised to marry me, and with whom I wanted to have a baby girl and named her after that fucking island.

- Lisa, if it is too painful I don’t need to hear it, you don’t have to talk about nothing you don’t want to… but I care for you, you are my best – she hesitated for a few seconds and then continue – no, you are my little sister.

- That is why I’m telling you all this Claudia, I think that in order you to understand the reason why I’m involved with Kudo

- Is your life

- Yeah, as the No Doubt Song says It’s my life, don’t you forget… but you are part of it, a very important part Jiminy Cricket – Claudia smiled, she perfectly knew that she was my conscious, my own and personal Jiminy Cricket – I knew Karl in my soft mare year in the academy, he was a pacific forced by his father to follow the family tradition.

- I guess you both shared the same family backgrounds

- At least my father has the excuse that he tried to raised me by himself, Karl’s parents were just selfish… they just wanted to continue serving their majesty, he is a highly recognized Admiral, personal friend of our majesty King Charles, and his mother a high society Lady that played bridge all Thursdays

- How did you meet him

- In a Saint Patrick’s party

- I cannot picture you celebrating Saint Patrick’s day, you Miss Put Together among Irish people swimming in warm beer.

- Well I’m not a party girl, but I was not the Ice Queen Hayes, not yet… we became one, he was 3 years older but we were deeply in love.

- Lisa you were 15 years old, what could you know about love

- No Claudia, Karl is the love of my life… when my father informed me about his dead during the attack to Sara Base something inside me died, and don’t believe it would be resuscitating in a near future

- What he was doing in Mars

- Running away from the war, how ironic is life isn’t it, he just ran away from the planet and his greatest fear followed him

- He should stay with you

- His intention was to send for me… if Dr. Lang knew he would fell in love with him, he was a genius, he could figure out anything you asked him for. He would really enjoy all our new technology, trying to figure out Robotech technology.

- Lisa there is not would in life… he is gone and you cannot do anything about it, but you are still alive, and yes life is more than the army… especially in peace time.

- Peace is not for ever… there will always be new enemies

- That’s true, but life is even shorter and more difficult to regain than peace, don’t you think so

- I won’t find someone as Karl… his passion for life, his love for peace for mankind.

- You’ll find someone even better than Karl, believe… someone you will inspire and challenge you, you’ll find your match Lisa Hayes, remember my words you will find him…

- You sound so certain

- As certain as… how about a little bet, you’ll buy me a YSL dress, not off season ok…

- And if my prince charming never come along

- What ever you want…

- I’ll think about it, I must take this opportunity to obtain something I really want

- Ok… I understand why you lost your faith in love, but why Kudo… I mean he is very attractive, but he is an ice block, I mean he is complete different from Karl

- Not completely… but he also lost a dear one, during the battle of the island, that might be the reason why we both connected

- Can you try something else than this little “arrangement” of yours

- As you say he is leaving in a week and it’s going to be hard to see each other again, at least for a long time

- Your father is the leader of the Great Canyon Project, couldn’t he pull some strings to assign you to it so you can be together

- Neither shin or I want that

- I think you are just a coward

- Claudia!

- Yes you are, you are so afraid to feel again and get hurt, that you hide behind your ice block or get involved with persons as scared as you and that know are leaving soon, so there won’t be the slightest chance to change the relationship

- You haven’t lost a dear one, so how can you know what it feels?

- I know my father died during the “Desert Storm” in a far away desert, and that my mum cried during months only her broken heart gave up… I cried and mourn for both of them, I know my soul was in pain all the time Roy was assigned to those fucking islands and knew nothing about him, whether he was dead or alive.

I couldn’t avoid to think about Roy and that girl Ariel Turner, what would Claudia feels if she founds out about her.

- I’m sorry, it was not my intention to behave as a spoil brat

- Well don’t be one, Lisa if you don’t start using your heart is going to be too late, soon or later you will found out that you are not capable to use it.

- Karl…

- Karl is dead and there is nothing you can do about it, Lisa you are 22 years old, you have you whole life in front of you. When you least expect it you will find someone that will help you to realize that Karl Riber, was your first love but not the last one. I bet whatever you want that he will be totally different and you will love him for that with all your soul.

In that moment I did something I had years without doing it… I cried as a little girl, hugging Claudia, as I did it so many years ago with my father when Lady Fiona died. Not even when the Admiral notified me about Karl’s dead I allowed myself to have that reaction, not with Vanessa or those occasions I cried my eyes off alone in my room.

Claudia Grant was not longer my friend, but my older sister, as she put it, she became in my personal and own Jiminy Cricket… the only person, until them, I stopped being a wooden puppet, or the Ice Queen Hayes, and became just the real Lisa.

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