chapter 3
the calm that precedes the storm
Lisa

When I woke up, Rick wasn't at my side and I stayed there laying in bed with my heart oppressed, Just as I felt last night.
The words of Rick repeated over and over again in my head and I wished to believe him, but something in my heart, in his eyes when he looked at me told me that it was a lie and I couldn't belive that, I refused to believe that. Probably it was my typical insecurity, that custom of denying my self to be happy and to accept that Rick was in love with me, that even after all these years of marriage I felt in my heart once in a while.

Finaly I got up and got dressed, then I looked at my self in the mirror, arranged my jacket and checked that the makeup had covered my swelling eyes from having been crying almost all night, in fact I don't remember the time that I fell sleep, but it must have been really late, because I think that I finally calmed down when I heard the quiet and calm breathing of Rick, like I haven't heard it in a long time, that finaly make me realize that his words were truth, that Rick couldn't lie to me in that way, not the Rick that I know. My Rick could be stubborn, a little bit immature, disobedient, but he's never been a liar, oh no Rick never could lie in that way, looking at me in the eyes.

I took a deep breath and looked at my self in the mirror again.

-come on admiral, the only woman in the history that has been nominated for Supreme comander of the army can't live having second thoughts about her self, or can she?-

I put my hands on my hips and smiled -of course not, besides Lisa, Who is the woman that Rick chose for a wife? Who is the mother of his son? and who has he been with all these years?, well that's me and Graham could burn in hell, I'm Rick's wife, I'm Lisa Hunter and not her- I said and put my head high and straightened my posture, I walked with more confidence in to the kitchen and there next to the coffee machine I found a note from RIck

"Lisa:
I had to leave early, problems with the resistence, I didn't want to wake you up. Don't worry is nothing serious, but Scott ask for my presence.
See you at dinner, a kiss
Rick"

I couldn't stop a smile and feeling a lot more better than when I woke up. And now I was completly sure that the words of Rick where truth, that Graham meant nothing for him. But I was worried, not for Rick, but for the resistence. The resistence, that group of rebels that has been created against the interestelar council and especially against the army, an army group that has commited several terrorist outrages against military installations and that has declared they reject the sdf-5, because they think that the only thing that we're looking is to make us stronger and kill everyone that was against us, and by doing that we will cause the destruction of all the human race.
And of course, I was one the first names in their black list, because I was the one that carried on with the cosntruction of the sdf-5 and it was because of them that the council has assigned a group of soldiers to protect me day and night, that group of soldiers became my personal guard , that hasn't left me alone for these last 3 years.
The resistance, it worries me a lot that they were so quiet lately, that they hadn't made a single move in all this time and I'm afraid that they are planing to attack the sdf-5 the day that it lands to pick up some troops, but the only thing that I could do by now was increese the security . Of course that the ideal thing would be to destroy them, but that will take some time. and time was what I didn't have right now, because my transport was outside of my house waiting for me.

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Rick

I arrived home late, I stayed in my office talking with Sue until now, just talking, like we did on Tirol, with a soft touch of hands once in a while, but just that. We haven't gotten any further. Finaly I decided to go home and as soon as I arrived I noticed that the light of the living room was turn on, it was late and from the conversation that Lisa and I had had a few days ago I can imagine that she will be waiting for me siting in the livingroom with all her questions, for knowing where I was and what I had been doing.
I finally walked in the house a little uncomfortable and worried, with the speech ready to answer all Lisa's questions and as I imagined I found her siting on the couch of the livingroom

-I'm home Lisa- I said for a second time, but she didn't answer me, so I walked in her direction very slowly, and she was sleeping on the couch, with her uniform on and with her laptop and briefcase under her arm. She didn't stay awake waiting for me to arrive, probably she arrived home so tired that when she sat on the couch she fell asleep immediately with all her stuff.

I watch her again, she was laying on the couch in a very uncomfortable position and her breath was soft and relaxed, always listening to Lisa sleep had a relaxing effect on me, her breathing is one of the sounds that I love the most. I came closer to her and took her briefcase carefully from her arm, trying to not wake her up and as I did that I couldn't stop thinking of the fact that Lisa trusted in me, that she didn't fall sleep there waiting for me, that she didn't make her sarcastic questions again, that now she really trusted in me, and now more than ever I was betraying her confidence in me. When I was taking her Laptop, Lisa opened her eyes.

-I didn't want to wake you up- I said a little confused when I saw her looking at me in the eyes, still sleepy.

-What time is it?- ask Lisa trying to sit up on the couch

-late- I said and stood up

-I can't believe that I fell sleep, I had to read all these reports-

-you look tired- I said and sat by her side

-I am, tomorrow I have to go to the satellite again and I'm checking the last protocols for the test of the sdf-5 and I fell sleep, I can't believe it- said Lisa and put her right hand on her head, just like she does when she has a headache

-you're human, yoi have all the right to feel tired-

-not now, I can be tired later but not now- said Lisa and stood up taking all her papers

-wait- I said and took her paper from her hands, - listen I know that you have a headache and as you are half sleep and with a headache you wouldn't get much reading done-

-but I have to- said Lisa trying to grab her papers back

-but nothing, go to the bedroom and put your pajamas on and I'll make you a cup of tea for your headache and tomorrow morning you can finish reading all these papers-
Isaid and start to move away

-if I make a mistake tomorrow on the sdf-5 I will court martial you, because you didn't let me finish reading those papers- said Lisa joking

-as you said admiral- I said and went to the kitchen

I arrived to the bedroom and Lisa was on the bed, checking her laptop

-hey thats not fair- I said when I left the cup of tea on the bedstand

-I'm sorry- said Lisa and turned off the laptop and took a cup of tea and after having a sip she added -thank you very much, it is wonderful-

-I'm happy that you like it- I said and smiled

We talked a little about the mission, about the latest details of the sdf-5, the ship will make her test jump to the dark side of the moon tommorrow and of course Lisa will be there on the bridge to check up on everything, and that made me a little worried

-but wouldnt it be better if you stay here and check everything from the operations vigilance center?-

-yes but, Where's the fun if I'm sitting in the vigilance center watching what's happeing on the bridge?-

-but it's more safe-

-You think it's more safe?- said Lisa with a suprised face -you are getting old Hunter- said Lisa and gave me a small hit in the shoulder

-I'm just worried for you- I said and took the cups of tea and went to the kitchen, when I came back I entered the bathroom and put on my pajamas and got into the bed next to Lisa, who immediatly turned off the lights and hugged me

-i'll be fine, I think that I still remember how to fly one of those ships-

-its not that that worries me, its all that new technology that the ship has on board, I'm worried that something might go wrong with the transposition generators, you know that those things and us don't get along-

-don't worry everything will be fine- said Lisa and she hugged me tight -besides if anything goes wrong I know that you'll come to rescue me-

-of course I will- I said and gave her a kiss on her forhead, then she started to tickle me and later she gave me a kiss on my neck -don't do that- I said in a funny voice

-why?- she ask me smiling

-because it's tickling-

-I know, that's why I'm doing it- said Lisa and after tickling me for a few more seconds, she hugged me again and gave me a kiss on my cheek

-goodnight- said Lisa

-goodnight- I said and rested my head over her hair and fell asleep

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Lisa

I woke up very early and tried to not wake Rick up, but when I came out of the bathroom I discovered that he wasn't in bed, he was in the kitchen waiting for me, still in his pajamas on, with the breakfast ready

-you don't have to bother- I said when I came into the kitchen

-its no bother, besides I feel guilty for not letting you read your reports yesterday- said Rick smiling

-don't worry I'll read them on my way to the satellite- I said and took a seat

-who else will be on the ship besides Karen and Jack?-

-all the important officers, the bridge crew, you know-

-and besides the transposition system what else will you be testing?-

-all the systems, we will take our time-

-then you will arrive home very late-

-probably I'll come back tomorrow, we will make the jump to and back from the dark side of the moon and during the transposition we will test all the other systems-

- I insist that it will be better that you stay here and watch everything from the vigilance center-

-you worry too much- I said and stood up and gave Rick a kiss on his forehead and ruffled his hair-I gotta go, the transbordador takes off at 05.00 a.m. and it's 04.30-

-take care and at any sign of danger you abort immediatlyok?-

-yes dad- I answered funny and I walked in to the bedroom to pick up my coat

-Lisa I'm serious- said Rick from the door of the room

I finish buttoning my coat and took my papers and my briefcase -so am I- I said when I was by his side -everything will be fine and I promise that at the first sign of trouble I'll abort the mission-

-that's better- said Rick still worried

-well then. now I have to go, they are waiting for me- I said and looked at him in the eyes -I love when you're worried for me- I said and gave him a kiss next to the mouth

-I always do- he answered to me

-bye, see you tomorrow-

-bye- said Rick and give me a kiss and after that I started to leave the room

I arrived to the runway and found Jensse, we boarded the tranbordador and during travel I finished reading the protocols of the ship and also Caroline informed me of the latest news of the council and of the survilance of the resistence and of what was going on on board of the sdf-5

Finally we took off in the new factory satellite and when we left the transbodador I found there with Jack who was waiting for me with the most importat officers of the sdf-5

-rearadmiral Baker reporting to you ma'am- said Jack formally and then he added -it's a pleasure to have you here admiral-

-It's good to be here Jack- I said and then I came closer to the rest of the people

-welcome on board admiral- said Karen

-thanks Karen, it's been a while since the last time that we saw each other- I said

-yes, we both have been busy- said Karen

-well admiral, I know that you probably had heard something about all the people that is here, but I'm not sure if you know them- said Jack and came closer to one officer

-she is the lieutienient comander Carla Fox, she will be the first officer if the sdf-5-

-comander- I said giving my hand to the comander

-ma'am- said the comander as she shook my hand

-the second officer, the lieutenient Peake and the radar officer Wool- said Jack and introduced me to all the officer and later we went to the operations rooms to check all the external parts of the ship and all of her sections and happily I verified that the sdf-5 was completly finished, the reflex engines of last generation were in position and the phantom generators were also in position and ready to start her functions

Finally we went to the bridge, and it had some similarity with the bridge of the sdf-2. one upper platform with the most important comand stations and a lower level where the rest of the comand post where. When we arrived to the bridge, all the comand officers were at their post, only Jack and I were left

-well admiral, we are ready to make the test jump in shadow modality- said Jack after talking with the officers

-then what are we waiting for?- I said

-I'm going to my ship, to start the count from there- said Karen and left the bridge

-Lisa, I mean, admiral take my chair- said Jack and I sat in the captains chair and Jack sat next to me in a similar chair

-well I think it's time to start the show- I said

-and I'll give you all the credit- said Jack

-you want me to take charge of the mission?- I ask suprised

-I want to learn from the best and certainly I want to give you the pleasure of fly for the first time this ship-

-or blame me if something goes wrong- I said smiling

-that too- said Jack smiling

-ok, I'll take the command of the sdf-5, but you have the control of the rest of the fleet-

-as you say- answered Jack

-ship status?- I asked

-the ship is 100% operational- answer me the comander Fox

-status of the fleet- asked Jack

-100% operational and waiting for the signal- answered the comander Fox

-start the count to turn on the reflex enigines- I said and the engeniering officer start the count

-how's the count on the rest of the fleet doing Carla?- asked Jack

-sincronized with ours- answer the comander after looking at her screen

-reflex engines, turn on, and woking at 805 of their capacity- said the lietenient peake

-prepare the system to incresed until 100% at the moment of start the phantom generators- I said

-roger- said Peake

-comander Fox stablish comunication with the rest of the fleet, for starting the phantom sistem- I said

-comunication stablished- said the comander and an image of Karen Pen, who was the captain of the most important scort ship appear infront of me -we are ready for start the Phantom sistem at your comand admiral- said Karen

-start the count on my signal- I said and after a few second I add -now-

-The ships started their counts and in 10 seconds all the ship started their Phantom sistem

-ship status?- I asked

-all sectors are 100% operationals, life support sistems are normal and the shield of the ship is at 100%- answer the comander Fox
-how are you?- ask Jack looking at the image of Karen
-100% operationals too- answer Karen
-great, Do we start the Jump already?- Jack ask me
-ok- I said and then look at the engeniering officer -start the transposition generators and stand by to make the jump at my signal- I said
-roger ma'am-
-Karen, you hear the instructions, stay on line for start the transposition- said Jack
-we are waiting for the signal- said Karen
-are the coordinates ready for make the jump to the dark side of the moon?- I ask to comander Fox
-yes ma'am, the coordinates are ready and we are waiting for your signal to start the jump-
-stat the count in T minus 5 seconds- I said
-starting the count- said the comander and the countdown began, 3 seconds has past when the engeniering officer interrupt
-I had an increase of preasure in the right relex engine and a drecrease of power in the transposition sistem-
-samething happens here, the power is not enough for make the jump- said the comander
-the presure od the refkex engine is over the 150%- said the lieutenient Peake and his voice shows hoe nervous he was
-the transposition sistem are at a 40% - add the comander Fox
-how are you?- ask Jack to Karen
-we cancel the count down, but our sistem are 100% operational, just like the resto of the fleat-
-lieutenient Peak, reduce the powe of the reflex engines to a 75%- I said with calm
-inmediatly- said the lieutenient and a few seconds later he add -the presure of the right engine strat to decrease-
-when the presure is normal, stabilize the power of the engines- I said
-What do we do with the rest of the fleat? shoud they star the transposition?- ask Jack
-it's your choice- Isaid
-well I guess thart they could wait for us there- said Jack and then he add- Karen start the transposition jump with the rest of the fleat and wait for us there-
-roger, we will wait for you there- said Karen and her image disapear
-COmander Fox, tranfer the energy from the support sistem to the transposition generators and when they reach the 80% of power suspend the functionament of the auxiliar generators of transposition for 3 seconds and then strart again- I said
-roger- said the comander and start to give orders from her station. a few seconds has past when the comander add -the generators of transposition are 100% operationals-
-start the count down for the jump in T minus 2 seconds- I said
-starting the count down- said the lieutenient Peake
after five seconds we make the jump with no trouble to the dark side of the moon, after testing there all the others sustentations sistems. we test the weapons sisten against some smalls asteroids and finally we make the transposition to came back.

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Rick

Lisa will be on the satellite all day, that will give enough free time to share it with Sue, with out worry. So I arrived early to my office and modify a litle my activities, certanly I wanted to go to the vigilane center, for knowing what was going on in the sdf-5, but I also want it to leave all my afternoon free to share it with Sue. I was finishing of organize my agenda when the door of my office opens and Sue appear behind there, beatifull as always

-good morning- I said smiling

-good morning- she said smiling and siting in the chair in front of me

-I'm kinda busy in the morning, but I have almost all my afternoon free- I said

-great, so what are we going to do in the morning?- she ask putting her elbows on my desk and resting her head in her hands

-we will go to check the new alphas that came down from the satellite and later we will go to the vigilance center to know what's going on in the sdf-5 test fly-

-and in the afternoon?- Sue asked me with her sexy voice

-I have to check some paperwork, but after that I'm free-

-what's about Lisa?-

-she will be until tomorrow in the satellite-

-interesting- said Sue with a smile

-what do you have in mind?- I asked with a smile too, with out even trying to imagine what was going on in Sue's mind, then she came forward until she has her face infront of mine
-what do you think if you go to my place for a dinner?- she said softly and sexy

-could be- I said playing her game

-don't you think is not fare that you spend all night alone, when I can be with you?-

-I think you're right- I said smiling

-then I'll wait for you in my place-

-what time?-

-when ever you want, the night is long- said Sue and give me a surprise kiss -I'll go to pick up my camera and wait for you in the car, the faster we finish with your days activities, faster the night will come- she said and leave the room quickly

The only thing that I could do was shacke my head and get out of the shock that her quick kiss caused me, I took my laptop and started to make the count of how fast I to do the things that I have to, so I could join Sue in her house as soon as posible.

When I finished my days activities, I went home and changed my clothes, I decided to go to visit Sue, but I wouldn't do it in my uniform. More than for confort, I'll do it as a precaution, because Sue lives in the officer village and somebody could recognize me for my uniform entering to Sue's place and then the rumor could go to Lisa.

Before leaving for Sue's place, I called to the central command to get some news about the sdf-5 and they told me that they were about to make the come back jump from the dark side of the moon.

I arrived to Sue's house and stopped in front of the door, not knowing for a few seconds if I should knock or not, I had in my hand a small bouquet of flowers that I bought for Sue, it was late, I had waited until the sundown to show my self in sue's house. I thought for a few moments in what I was about to do, in what meant to came in into Sue's house and my heart started to beat faster, there was something in that young girl that make me feel alive, that makes me need her, just the fact of remember her kisses, that has had place in the conferece room drive's me crazy and I was waiting for them since the moment she has left the room. I shake my head and stop the questions, I knock on the door and a few moments later Sue show up, with jeans and a blouse that let me see her bra

-I thought that you wouldn't came- she said with a smile

-of course I'd come- I said and make a pause -I brought you this- I said and give her the flowers

-Oh Rick you're so sweet- she said and after I came in she closed the door

-I'm sorry I'm late, but I had to answer some call.....- I was saying but she shut me up with a kiss, with one of her kisses that seams to burn

-shh, I don't nead explanations, at least you're here- she said and start to playing with my hair

-I miss you- I said as my hand run to her back

-so do I- she said and start to leading me to her bedroom-

-what's up with the dinner? I ask a little confused when we where in front of her bed

-it could wait- she said and push me over the bed, and then she falls over me and start to unbotton my shirt

-Sue, wait....- I said, something didn't feel right right now, we were going to far to fast

-we don't have time for that- she said and unbotton her blouse and then start to kissing my neck

-Sue- I said trying to get away from her kisses

-I love the way that you react when I kiss you on the neck, its like if you feel tickles- she said and started to kiss my neck again, I took her face with my hands and kissed her. for some reason I felt very unconfortable when she kiss my neck, so I prefer kiss her

-Sue- I said when we break the kiss -we have all night what's the rush?-

-it just that you drive me crazy- she said and started to undo my belt

-No Sue, I'm serious- I said and took her hands in mine to stop her

.but what's going on?- she ask upset

-I don't know I said confused, there was something that was bothering me

-Rick, come on there just you and me and you wife will arrive tomorrow morning, theres nothing to worry about. she said and stared to kissing me again

My wife, that was the problem, sudenly like a ghost the image of Lisa appears in front of my eyes, with her eyes full of tears saying to me that she couldn't fight against Graham, that she dosen't wan't it lose me, and it was just like if somebody had hit me in the stomach, I felt like I couldn't breathe. What was I doing to Lisa?, I had taken the first moment when she is not arround to go and have sex with another woman, in what moment did I became the person that I am now?. and for a second I could see me there, laying in Sue Graham's bed, like if I was separeted from my body and just the image made me sick.

I stood up, almost throwing Sue Graham out of the bed and walk away confused, saying words that I couldn't understand and buttoning my shirt until I was by the door. She only stayed there looking at me with a mixture between deception and anoyance. I left her house and ran to my car, I couldn't arrive home because I felt unable to do it, of facing my home after what I had done. but What could I do?, the only thing that I could think at this time was in erase all the evidence to prevent that Lisa find out of my "affair" with Graham. If before I had to lie to protect my adventure with Grrham, now I have to do it to protect Lisa, to not lose her, to not hurt her and once and again the questions and reproach for my conduct repeated in my head, How can I make so much damage to someone that I love? I felt that my head spin arround, until the point that I had to stop the car because I cant see the road. I felt nauseas and was dizzy, I remember seeing me lay there with Graham in her bedroom and remember the words that I had said to Lisa, promessing her that I never put my eyes on Grahan, make me feel sick

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Lisa

after making the come back jump from the darkside of the moon, we turned off the shadow sistem and made a new check of the ship sistem and the fleet. Everything was in place and all the ship sistems were working as it was expected. the construction of the sdf-5 was a success, now the ship will be on earth in only five days, because here in the satellite must be charged all the supplies necesary for the ship trip. I was waiting my transborador with Jack and the people that had come with me to the satellite

-Lisa you really don't want to stay here?- ask me Jack

-no Jack, don't worry-

-because I have the captain's room ready for you-

-thanks Jack, but I prefer to go down to earth and sleep in my own bed- I said smiling

-ok, as you want-

-besides I have to many things to do tomorrow, the council will be anxious to know the progress of the ship-

-right and I must thank you again for taking the control of the ship-

-you don't have to thank me, it was a pleasure for me-

-I'm serious Lisa, I'll never would have think of the maneuvers that you do so we can make the transposition-

-its only the experience Jack, just that- I said and made a pause so I can put one of my hands on his shoulder -after all, I had made transpositions in almost all the sdf that have been put in orbit-

-in all the SDFs Lisa, you also made the test jump for the sdf-4- said Jack smiling

-you are right- I said and laughed for a few moments

-Ma'am the ship is ready- said Jenssen coming closer to me and Jack

-well Jack I think its time to go-

-once again Lisa, thanks for everything-

-you have nothing to thank, and wipe off that face of terror man for god's sake-

-there's nothing that I can do about it Lisa, I guess it the classic nervous of the moment, it's my first mission of this type-

-and you'll do great, I trust in you 100% besides you have Karen's support if anything goes wrong- I said

-I know, but I guess I can't stop feeling nervous, I imagine that you never felt this way-

-Me? you wish. I was hysterical everytime that the ship has to take off or we have to turn on one of the engines of every ship that I ever flew-

-but you don't look like you were-

-well with time you learn to hide it, beside if I look like a histerical woman, How do you think that crew will react?-

-you're right I guess that with time I felt more secure-

-trust me, you will- I said and put my hand on his shoulder again

-I hope so-

-you must trust more in your self and in your crew and everything will be fine-

-I trust in my crew, I know that all of them know very well their jobs. what worries me is how I can reat, it very overwellming knowing that the life of all this peoples are in my hands-

-certanly its overwelming, that's why you must that your decission with calm and I know that you have listened everywere that they must been taken with the head, but sometimes you must ask council to your heart-

-I just hope that I don't make to many mistakes-

-everybody makes mistakes Jack, we are human- I said and give him a small hit in her shoulder -when you came down to earth we can talk more-

-sure, you'll have me in office- said jack ans start to walt to my transbordador door

-well Jack take care and don't think to much ok?- I said smiling

-I'll try, but can't promess you anything-

-any problem with the ship you let me know and I hope that you come down to earth before the meeting with the council-

-I came down the day before in the afternoon-

-well then I see you then-

-we will see us- said Jack and salute me and I get in the transbordador

I slept a litle on the trip to earth, in fact Caroline woke me up to came down from the transbordador We started to came down the stairs when I realize that someone was in the runway

-who's there Caroline?- I ask as I pulled up the neck of my coat, because of the cold of the artic

-I don't know ma'am- answer me Caroline a litle worried

-Will something important had hapen when we came down?-

-somebody would have informed me ma'am-

I continue my way down and the the person came closer and I could identyfied, it was Rick, he was there with his hands in his pockets and only with his shirt

-Rick?- I ask still curious, when I finish to come down. Rick only walked in my direction and when he was close enough he hold me, like he hasn't seen me in months

-I'm so happy that you're back- said Rick still hugging me

-are you ok? what's going on?- I as a litle worried, trying to release me from his hug so I can look at him into the eyes

-nothing happened-

-is Roy ok? did he have an accident?- I ask trying to make me sure that no one of my biggest fears had came true

-Roy it's fine, cant i just come to pick my wife up?- said Rick hugging me again

-of course you can, Its just that I was worried-

-well you don't have anything to worry about, I just came to pick you up because I missed you-

-Rick- I said smiling and looking hin in the eyes again

-I love you so much- said Rick looking me in the eyes, with some sadness and with the voice a litle broken

-I love you too- I said and then I kissed him in the cheek -you're so cold-

-well I've been here for a while-

-and like this only with your shirt? Rick you will catch a flu and a big one-

-that dosen't matter, What do you think if we go home? it's 04.00 a.m.-

-I think its a good idea- I said and hugged Rick and we start to walk to the car, but before of get in the car I turned to -Caroline, see us at 10.00 a.m. in my office and I don't want to hear that you arrived early, understood?-

-yes ma'am- ansewer Caroline who was a few steps away

-should we go now?- said Rick opening the door of the car for me

-when ever you want- I answer and we went home

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Rick

I arrived home after flying for 3 hours in my already famous Fokker modified. I needed to have my mind clear and took away of my regretes because of what had happened with Sue Graham, take away my regrets for betraying Lisa, for being unfaithfull to her, I felt dirty, so little, I know that I don't deserve her love. I came in to the house and it was all dark, except for our bedroom there I found Lisa reading, probably reports of the sdf-5

-Hi- I said looking at the floor when I crossed the door

-Hi- she said smiling and leaving the papers in her night table -What's going on? Why that face?- she ask me worried

-I'm just tired- I said rubbing my head

-come here- said Lisa hitting softly the bed. I took off my shoes and let me fall into the bed, then I rest my head in Lisa's lap and she start to play with my hair

-.you were flying right?- she ask me after a few minutes

I only nodded with my head, I felt something stuck in my troath, I felt bad. How can I hold Lisa after what I had done to her?, I could I be such a bastard?

-everytime that you fly, your hair has this smell, I guess its the mixture of the steam of the engines and your helmet, but I prefer to think that is the smell of the sky that sticks to your unrully hair- said Lisa and sink her nose in my hair

How could I betry her? how could I have done that to her? what the hell was I thinking?. And Lisa was there, holding me, carresing me and the tears started to fall from my cheeks and I hold her tight. Please God don't let her find out what happen with Graham, I beg. Just the idea of Lisa finding out scares me, she'll never forgive the fact of been unfaithfull to her and I can't live with out her, I just can imagine my life with out her, with out Lisa at my side. But how can I be such a fool?

-are you sure that everything is ok? there anything that you want to tell me?- I heard sudenly the voice of Lisa

I cleared my throat and wiped my eyes with care so Lisa didn't find out

-in fact theres something that I want to tell you- I said pulling up my head so I can look at her into the eyes

-tell me- said Lisa

-I love you, you are the most important thing in my life- I said and Lisa look at me with surprise, with her beatifull green eyes wide open, finaly she smiled and carressed my face

-I love you too, I love you very much-

-promess me that what ever happen we will always be together- I said looking at her deeply in the eyes

-always together until death separates us- said Lisa and kissed my forehead

-not even death could separate us- I said when Lisa was still kissing me and I pull the sheets and get into the bed with my clothes on and hold Lisa again with my head resting in her chest

-What are you doing?- asked Lisa funny

-getting into bed- I said and hold her tight

-but you are with your clothes on, your uniform...- was Lisa saying but she cant finish because I cut her off with a kiss it was a quick kiss and I turned off the lights

-goodnight Lisa- I said

-goodnight- she answered me and sink her nose in my hair and with one hand she started to play with it. I held her tight and said softly when I noticed that she was falling sleep

-I love you-

-I love you too- said Lisa and after a few moments she added -if I lost you, my heart would be broken-

listening her words was like if I was stabbed in the heart, I felt my own heart broken

-you will never lose me- I said softly, and my words hurt me because I know that if Lisa's heart would be broken it will be my fault and nobody else. How can I hurt so much the person that I love the most?. The only thing that I could do was beg to God that Lisa never find out what has happened, beg him to not cause any more pain to Lisa, he could do anything with me, he could punish me, but not her.

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Lisa

I woke up late, well just a litle more later than usual and I arrived to my office and was surprised to not find Caroline at her post. We will check the last informs from the sdf-5 so we could show them to the council and announce when the ship will arrived to earth, but she wasn't there, so I check the papers that were on my desk and a note call my atention

"Admiral,
The lieutenient comander Grahan cancelled her interview with you for today, she reports herself as sick"·

Graham, I think. surprisely she hasn't been a problem in the last time and Rick speak everytime less about her, but worried me. Certantly not for Graham, after our conversation a few days ago when he promised me that he will never put his eyes on her, I was no longer afraid of this woman and besides Rick has been so tender and worry for me lately that doubt of him will be only my insecurity. But I was worried for him, something was happeing to him, something bothers him, his eyes were incredibly sad and for some reason he didn't want to tell me what was going on. He was acting just like he has done a few year ago when he didn't want to tell me that he needed to have an stomach surgery. did his stomach problems have come back?, I asked and decided that tonight I will interrogate Rick

Finally I stood up and decided to go to find Caroline, I ask to one of my escorts if he has seen her and after making some calls to the security center of the comand he told me that Caroline was in the projection center, so I started to walk in that direction.

I arrived to the center and I didn't find her, but I heard voices in the small room of proyection, that was next to it, I was about to open the door but I stopped for a few moments to hear the voices

-are you sure that this is what you captured from the cameras of the conference room?- ask a woman's voice

-ofcourse I'm sure, at the begining I had some doubts, but I decodify it 3 times to make sure that it was real- said a male voice, and it was lieutenien van der Roehr

-we can't show her this John, we'll kill her if we do it-

-but she has the right to find out what kind of man Hunter is-

-I know, But you have any idea of what we can cause if we show this tape?-

-yes and I think its fair that she finds out, besides she ordered us on the mission-

-then I don't have the heart to show her-

-Caroline, listen it also breaks my heart showing her the tape, but its better that she finds out the truth, don't you think?-

-I know, but its...- Caroline was saying when I decided to open the door of the room

-What should I find out?- I asked finally, worried and with the heart tight

-admiral- said Caroline with terror in her voice

-of what tape are you talking about that you cant show me?- I asked serious, almost mad. I was scared and I guess it was the best way of let the fear come out

-ah, he, it's a tape of the conference room- said van der Roehr

-and?- I ask in a hard voice

-it has to do with the mission that you give us of keep comander Graham under survilace- said Caroline softly

-well then I guess I can see it- I said

-yes ma'am ofcourse you can see it- said Caroline

-well then what are you waiting for leave me alone to watch it- I said

-yes ma'an, sorry ma'an- said van der Roehr and took Caroline by the arm to take her out of the room

I was afraid of what I could find in the tape, the words of Caroline and van der Roehr sounded in my head, Why they were so scare that I watch the tape?, Why van der Roerh said that it was necesary that me to find out that kind of man Rick was?

There were just only one more thing to do, and that was watch the tape, and that scared me to death.

To be continued.......